The Reasons why I wrote Delightful Pain
The meaning In this story, I'm not glorifying rape, though there are times when it may show that it is, especially with the title and the summary but I'm telling you now, before you read the ending, that I don't support rape, I'm against it. Rape is a horrible, horrible thing, going on in our society right now. Women out there are going through these problems and it's sad that men think that they can simply take advantage of a woman without their will. But that's the idea I'm trying to portray. Hogwarts is just like any old place. Just because Dumbledore is around one can't assume that such things can't occur. It's under Dumbledore that Tom Riddle had became the Voldemort who is feared by all, who became the most most powerful wizard of their age. If someone like Voldemort was able to grow and flourish under Dumbledore's nose, then such a thing like that is trivial in comparison. Hogwarts is not a utopia, there is a war going on in the background, but along with that war, there are problems that individuals face. You can't just say that because it's Hogwarts, these things might not happen, because Hogwarts is like anyother world, Muggle and Wizarding alike and all humans are the same. It's nice to know that there are safe places in the world, but in reality, there just isn't.
In this story, I'm just trying to show Hermione's growth, out of innocence, out of weakness, and into growing up and becoming aware. Now you may not agree with me in the way I portrayed it, but this is my interpretation of what Hermione and Draco would do given the circumstances. Hermione is known for her perfection, her irritating quality of always knowing what's right and what's wrong and when and how to react. But in reality, humans are not perfect, of course. Hermione is like any other woman, she has her weaknesses and she has her strength. Draco is a man who had always thought that he was superior than anyone else. However when Harry Potter and Hermione Granger comes along, he's pushed far back into the category of being a selfish bully. He sees Hermione as someone he could conquer and if he could, then he thinks of himself as a man (as slythernswn once told me) It is about control and it's about power, something both of them wish to aquire so that they can be 'perfect' in their mind.
This story isn't technically a DarkFic, because hope for redemption is there, but the ending written show that Hermione cannot get herself out of this mess she is put under, therefore categorizing the story into a Dark one, perhaps even a tragic one. Draco strives for repentance, to atone for his sins, but even he is given into the darkness that they both have unleased. It is the "darkness of man's heart" as William Golding had written in Lord of the Flies, last page. Hermione and Draco allowed their natural carnal insticts to take over. So yes, it can be viewed a Angst ridden story that has a speck of hope, or it can be viewed as a complete confinment in which there is no hope for these characters to grow out of, leaving them in this state of eternal insantity.
I wrote Delightful Pain so that I can grow as I writer and I posted it so that I can get feedback, good and bad alike. There was a time when I had became temperamental and egotistical, but I grew out of that phase all because of reviewers, friends, and just life itself. So there you go, the reasons why I wrote this "sick, demented story."